a lesson on dependence
So it was about 4 weeks ago when I first watched this clip. It evoked something inside of me that wanted something more in my life…so I prayed that prayer. I genuinely meant it too. It’s a scary prayer to pray but I had some kind of peace praying it.
Almost 2 weeks ago I lose my wallet…wasn’t sure where it was, but figured it would turn up like many of the things I lose do…after a while. But it never turned up. All my credit cards, debit cards are there, medical cards, cash and my drivers license. At first it wasn’t too bad because I had some cash leftover that I could survive with, but as the days went by, I didn’t have much left. I’ve been finding myself praying many prayers of dependence and that God would help my find my wallet. But he’s actually been providing in other ways.
There’s some kind of joy and excitement in giving when not having much and learning to trust God. I had around $5 left and since someone needed $4 to buy their sg member a bible, I offered to give what I had. Later on, my coservant got sick and during Bible study that day I found some left over sg funds, $15, and getting some items, it ended up being exactly under $15. God provided meals through my parents who just happened to come down randomly when I ran out of cash…so I have a few meals stashed in my freezer. I ran out of gas (literally below the red line), and with no cash or credit card, I wasn’t sure what to do, but God helped me find a gas station that accepted checks. Just yesterday I was able to eat a free jack daniel’s burger at TGIF because of coupons that me and my sg member got and the last bit of cash that I had ($2 remaining from bible and sick care package) covered what we needed for tip. And lastly, I was able to get some of the remaining cash from my coservant for T-shirt money that people paid for…that will provide enough for this upcoming revival weekend and any costs for sg.
I know it’s not that crazy, but looking back I really see how God wanted me to depend more, even in this small problem. But it also gets me excited and eager to see how God can REALLY provide as I’m really dependent on him in my life in the future.
Lord give me faith and help me to depend on you, the gracious, providing, God. And if needed, break me and give me only my daily bread.
Try praying this prayer yourself and let me know how God provides in your life.
Don’t drive the stakes in too deep. We are leaving in the morning.
– Pmin (An Israelite dad talking to his son, reminding him that where they’re staying is only temporary…and their destination is the promised land.)Since watching this video, it’s been on my mind…and I know I have to do something about it because this is not where I want to be. If you have time, check out this dynamic speaker and ask yourself the question that he poses: Are you lukewarm and loving it?
just a little faith
Just one thought on faith. reading bwang’s entry reminded me that what’s important is not faith or how much we have, but the object of our faith. It’s who we put our faith in that really matters and as we see how crazy our God is about us and for this world…and how awesome he really is, that’s what faith is.
Keeps it in perspective and gives me a sense of peace knowing that it’s not about me or what i’m doing to scrounge up faith, but simply knowing and seeing God for who he is. That generates faith in us.
My lovely CRH 1.
Definitely one of my joys this semester. I love it when i see em around. =)
Holler back.
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Trying to have a new perspective on life.Reminding myself of the joys, thoughts and random thoughts i've had throughout the day.
